So Sorry I Was AWOL...

...so let's catch up!!

This is the final result of Sam and I's adventure to going blonde. I think I'm in love with it, I make a rather good blonde if you ask me. Sam finally graduated beauty school and to celebrate we went to a Blue's game. It was ehhhh....but we had a shit ton of fun.

Life lately has been uber stressful, but I'm starting to realize how good I'm becoming at laughing it all off. For instance, Friday afternoon I went to my parent's house to pick up some mail only to find my older brother, Nick, hauled over his bed screaming in pain. Now up until this point in life I have seen my brother cry a total of three times in his life and be in agonizing pain maybe four times. So you could understand my heartbreak and fear to find him this way. I rushed him to the ER and he had surgery to get his appendix out. He is still in the hospital and late last night we sat together talking about our lives. We reminisced on the good times and tried to find understanding on the bad times. We talked for hours and I ended up crying. There were many memories he told me about that I realized I didn't remember, about three years of my life are blank to me. Nick filled in certain pieces that broke my heart, I now knew why I felt and acted certain ways. After we had a few minutes of silence I told him I wanted to laugh for the rest of my life and never make the same mistakes our parents made. I wanted to be better and happier. He wished me luck on my new outlook as I left. When I got to my car I realized one of my doors was open, when I was fairly sure it had been locked. My car had been broken into and the only things missing were some money, half a pack of cigarettes, and my most beloved item...my iPod. I sat shocked at first. I wanted to cry and scream and be angry. I laughed instead, like this was some test from the universe to see if I would really laugh at my problems from here on out. So I sparked one of the remaining cigarettes and laughed all the way home.

Who cares if my luck runs short sometimes. As long as I have my brothers, my best friend, and my boyfriend I'll survive this life somehow. Even when I trip in my beautiful ankle boots I know one of them will always pick me up.